


The year began with a trip to Uvas Creek, near San Jose, and to see the Snow on Mt DIablo. Steve often rode his bike in the hills, or down to the bay, and took photographs with his little Kodak digital camera.
In early April the Cavepainters played a wedding in Canyon, and the afterparty at Barry’s Earthship up the road. For some reason we drove to the Moraga Safeway for beer and snacks, and leaving the store I tripped over a concrete parking curb and sprained my wrist and ankle. The manager and a clerk came out and brought me water, fussed over me and took my name and info, but I was fine, thanks. We asked for a bag of ice for my ankle and back to the party and played great! for hours, but that week I was hurting, addle-pated, took off work, unable to haul my paintings and missed my class. Plus, we came home to two parking tickets, so the gig was a wash.



It’s hard to describe here how we came to be in Palmdale in April of 2008. Some things are too fractious to dwell on. Don’t know if that is the word for an event, but it was definitely in the aether of that weekend. Trauma, drama, overwhelm, migraines, a difficult year all around, and the crazy neighbor on Essex had reached a crescendo. I buried myself in the record collection in the guest room, Thelonius Monk, Charlie Hunter, Blood on the Tracks, Pet Sounds, Mingus, London Calling. I picked some books and archives out of the stacks of boxes in the garage.
A brilliant loud moon that night, and cold in the morning. A hike in the rainy spring desert, Amargosa Wash was running, and a tamarisk grove had taken hold in the outflow from the new housing tract.


I did not do well at my assigned role, put my foot in it, and later heard my voice on the radio–oh dear, that’s not what I said, or meant, is it? Loading our guitars and gear into the 4Runner, we did not speak.
This is when I learned to pull the energy back to fake a positive demeanor, manipulate the molecules into something creative, positive, wholesome, good, productive. Steal their energy for my own momentum, my own use. Go back and make my own memory, change the future. At least I have that.
Driving north up the coast, Steve and I pulled into a hidden glade by a murky pond of oak leaf tea water, not really a campsite, at Chalk Peak on Plaskett Ridge Road. I found and made nonsense words from burnt and bent nails left in the fire ring. I had just started the Calligraphy series at the Adult School, and was obsessed with letterforms.



We talked at length about the cornered, mad-dog reaction, and felt badly about leaving everyone in that state, but happy as hell to get the hell out. I definitely felt like a negative force in the equation, but Steve said I was Absolutely Right. Still, it left a chill I haven’t gotten over. Ah well, it was election season.
Just that one minute ruined our appetites, we stopped for a fish combo and salads, and took them home. Don’t read the newspapers. Plant beans and lettuce. Feed the birds. Augery of the Ravens at the birdbath. Sleep for twelve hours. Home to a music party, where people say nice things about me and want me to play in their bands. Whew.












































