July 18, 2015

Stevie is gone, I am still here.  A mantra I used to ground myself with during the darkest nights, when I thought I would lose everything, hanging onto the very earth by my fingernails.  I’m Still Here.

I’m Still Here.

The banner photograph above was taken by our friend Nancy at the Half-Muffin, (2007)  a small version of the Memorial Day tradition, the Meadow Muffin.  Art and I went this year (MMXL) and he wondered if I would be awash in memories of when Steve and I had gone.  Yes.  But no, it was no different, he lived here with me for 23 years, every day I miss him, he is gone every day.  Every day I feel his loss.  He is gone.  I’m Still Here.